This is it, I thought. This is the big one.
And the thing about thoughts like that is, if nothing else, you know something major is happening. No one just sits around casually thinking stuff like “this is the big one.” Mostly, when people are panicking or actually facing something big in their lives, there aren’t a lot of coherent expressions lining up like dialogue. When I’m surprised by something, particularly something bad, I usually just stick to long strings of swear words, myself.
But this was something of a special case. I’d been expecting this ever since Myr and I parted company. I’d even, shameful as it is to admit, been lining up end-of-the-trip kind of dialogue in my head for just such an occasion.